Pitiful

Pardon my candor but I need to post this now, if only to mollify the throbbing ache I feel inside.

I was outside when I heard this song and felt it should be mine in the meantime. While I cry, while I weep, while I mourn... I thought I would be a little okay by now, and the pain becomes unnoticeable through time. But I was wrong.

Through time, the pain becomes unbearable. It's like a bright, blinding light; or a loud, deafening sound; or a sore, stinging wound.

Oh, hell. I don't understand the pain of heartbreak at all.

And here's the song playing in mind today, together with the others currently on the Heartbreak playlist.

The hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing
There's someone in this crazy world for me
The way that people come and go through temporary lives
My chance could come and I might never know

I used to say "No promises, let's keep it simple"
But freedom only helps you say goodbye
It took a while for me to learn that nothing comes for free
The price I paid is high enough for me

I know I need to be in love
I know I've wasted too much time
I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world
And fool enough to think that's what I'll find

So here I am with pockets full of good intentions
But none of them will comfort me tonight
I'm wide awake at 4 a.m. without a friend in sight
I'm hanging on a hope but I'm all right